(self awareness is a) wonderful thing. I know I will die soon, so will you and everyone else. Maybe we will be lucky and a comet will smash us back to day 1. People say it is immoral to follow others, they say be a leader. Well here is a fuckin news flash for you stupid shits, everyone is a follower! Everyone who says they aren't a follower and then dresses diff. or acts diff. ... They got that from something they saw on TV or in film or in life. No originality, how many JO MAMMA jokes are there and how many do u think are original and not copied. KEINE. Its a fucking filthy place we live in. All these standards and laws and Great Expectations (webb) are making people into robots even though they might "think" they arent and try to deny it. No matter how hard they try to NOT copy someone I still AM! Except for this fucking piece of paper right here, and B.T.W spelling is stupid unless I say. I say spell it how it sounds, it's the fuckin easiest way. Hey try this sometime, when someone tells you something, ask "why?" eventually they will be stumped and can't answer anymore. That's because they only know what they need to know in society and school, not real life science. they will end up saying words to this "because! Just shut up!" people that only know stupid facts that arent important should be shot, what fucking use are they. NATURAL SELECTION. KILL all retards, people w/ brain fuck ups, drug adics, people cant figure out to use a fucking lighter. GEEEAWD! people spend millions of dollars on saving the lives of retards, and why. I don't buy that shit like "oh he's my son though!" so the fuck what, he aint normal, kill him, put him out his misery. He is only a waste of time and money, then people say "But he is worth the time, he is human too" no he isnt, if he was then he would swallow a bullet cause he would realize what a fucking waste and burden he was. -- 4/10/98
Eric mentions that he is aware that he will die soon. I wonder if that sense of his own mortality and impending end have shaped some of his world views, or at least emboldened his expression of those views. Eric also discusses originality and how most things in the world, especially in our modern consumerist society, are just copies of others. I find it funny that he sees his writings and thoughts as perhaps the only truly original or novel thing in his life. I am not entirely sure why he capitalized Great Expectations and what the purpose of (webb) is. Maybe some sort of reference to the Charles Dickens novel? Eric lets us know that spelling is not important and that things should be spelled phonetically.... unless he says otherwise. The last part of this entry shows Erics utilitarian views on those with mental disabilities and advocates for their liquidation. He says that if those people were truly human (or understood the world in the way Eric does) that they would come to the same conclusion about the value of their lives. It's easy to say things like this when you do not know the individual person but when the human factor comes into play, decisions like this are not as clear cut as Eric makes them out to be. I also found it funny that he lumps in drug addicts and people who don't know how to use a lighter in this group of people who should be killed. I wonder if he was with someone just before he wrote this who couldn't use a lighter properly.